Abstracts Attract

Wow i haven't wrote on here in forever... I been writing else where due to the sensitive subjects.

but anywho, thanks for reading and letting me share my world with you.

Subject @ hand "Attraction"

Where the hell does that come from?? lol seriously, i mean there is the people you meet and you are like wow they are gorgeous! but as you grow older you realize that looks aren't everything.

(and for you gold diggers, users, and abusers money isnt everything either but thats another day and page.. but yea lets get back on subject, please excuse my gemini mind.. lol)

As you grow older you realize you can't change ones thought and opinions. you can help the with that realization but thats it.

Atrraction..... the one that comes out of nowhere and says, " Hmm.. why havent i noticed you sooner.. lol.... that one. Its crazy. let me tell you a story.

I have this friend.... known him forever. great person.... quiet, so i thought... lol I used to pick on him alot kinda like helga from "hey arnold" if you remember that "Nicktoon" :) except for that part where she had that shrine in her closet. lmao! i'm not a stalker ppl.. but yea what drew me to him was that he was soooo quiet and reserved unlike me. It aggravated me so i thought. i couldnt figure him out. i just labeled him as weirdo.. lol I guess because we are so different.

One day i saw him out with a chic and it dawned on me... I felt a little jealous. I was confused. i thought why is this bothering me when i don't care.. maybe i do...

then i started flirting with him like months later and i was like whoaaaa, Aleeisha what are you doing? you don't flirt with ppl, they flirt with you.. then i started asking to hangout with him.. my mind was liike this is alll new---- different---- undiscovered. Its had always been the other way around. why because i hadn't always been the cutest thing ever growing up. i mean i didn't bother me because i was the joker. I love making ppl laugh. but every guy before him, they took the initiative. i've never had too. So me even admitting that i like him to him took me forever annd a day... lol.. i couldnt pull myself to do it. I was scared for some odd reason... i thought wow ima a ppl magnet and can make convo with a mime or even myself but i cant voice anything serious to him.... wow..

i enjoy being around him but i don't wanna overdo it since i feel that he has the upperhand now.. I don't like feeling vunerable.... I know what brought me to this point but to reverse it. I have to be understood and cared for. until then i'll be that funny tall cute chic that everyone knows me to be.

I sometimes find myself sensoring happiness or sadness out with a whatever attitude.. Its a cover up.. its been times where i might have wanted to give him a bear hug and tell him i was proud of him for being him.. but what do i do? keep it in like everything else. how do you transcend from not showing emotions because emotions will get you hurt again to showing them and playing russian roulette with your heart... and mind..

yea, i run and dodge anything emotional with all cost. i forgot how to genuinely open up my heart. how he keeps slipping in i dont know... the thing is he doesn't even know that i admire him and he puts a smile on my face even when i act unphased.

I've never like anyone that has a wonderful mind like mines. a thinker...

aight i don't feel like writing anymore. take care...

A Day of Change

Wow..... It still amazes me that I was a part of History on Nov 4 (08). And today... January 20 2009..... I had 2 compose myself for a minute..... This was my 1st election and i have never really been into politics until now. Obama changed the game for real because instead of having to analyze "political talk" but he simply talks real. Thats what we need in America understanding and comprehension of what is said and done in politics to be able to really critique it.

Its all so great... I can't really word it right now because i'm still taking it in... but next time when we reelect Obama please inaugurate him On Time! lol

Random thoughts of the Day

• This ugg boot trend has to die one day.... seriously guys.. well actually gals.. lol
  
  
• Double texting - v. The act of one texting another simultaneously without giving the receiver adequate time to text back. STOP this Crime of madness!! You are only allowed to retext if you misspelled a vital word. Pass this on please! lol





• I'm mad @ terrence howard ( yes, sweetie.. u gets no caps) for tryna clown Jamie Foxxs' artistry... Jamie is and has been the truth. He is versatile! He plays various role in movies unlike yourself and he doesnt carry around Man-purses! You know what this animosity you have might stem from the fact that no one knew you have an album or really cared to buy it. So lighten up my lightskinned "frenemy" it shouldn't be too hard for you to do :P

• Oh yea... Everyone you are now cordially entitled to "Go Ham". Going ham is an art form that really doesn't take much effort. All you really need is that one thing to make or break your day. For example, You are ready to get off of work and hit "freaknik" traffic without the freaks. (lol) You turn on the radio to discover that a homeless man is threatening to jump off of 10th street bridge, which you are currently near.. You yell, "JUMP ALREADY!" out the window. That split second reaction out of an emotion is referred to as "going ham".. lol.. sooo from now on (until it subsides) i will have a "go ham" event for you every day!
  
  
  

Stay Tuned! :P

Hello World

Welcome Love!

Its your time in 2009! To what?? To Shine! Don't be a follower be a leader. Try or learn something new everyday. Know that you deserve the best and that's what you aim to get. Always keep people in your life that charge your battery, not those who will drain it.

I'm new @ this but it will only get better!

Ms. Pink